Almost done with my Maternity class i have a presentation on Tusday due, and a Final shortly after. Evaluations for my med surg sight is coming up as well. Im pretty damn excited. Mid September i begin my last term consisting of a pediatric rotation, Physc, home health and another med surge. Ive really enjoyed school, even though its been long and im a walking zombie this has been extremely rewarding and there is nothing id choose to do for the rest of my life other than this. I love my patients they have been life changing and im so blessed to be in a position that humbles me and lets me be theyre help and advocate. I have been pressured, tested, emotionally torn, proud, loved, appreciated all in one day. In the end im convinced this is my passion, my calling.
i wear makeup so i look alive and well and not like a walking zombie.
Makeup does wonders. Especially for me.
Tired, burnt out, #dead.
I cant do this today…walking zombie at the hospital
My usual patients consists of 4 gentlemen, im currently at a rehab facility that also offers long term care, one of my patients is HIV positive. I am required to do total care on all of them, and he has become my absolute favorite, not because we have in depth conversations, or because he absolutely favors me amongst the other nurses, its the humility and kindness he expresses all without saying more than a couple words. This morning after getting him out of bed and giving him his medication, he puked everywhere.. i handed him a basin placed my glove on his back, slicked his long blonde hair out of the way and massaged him the way my mother would when i was young and i would get sick. He looked up, nodded as i continued to clean him up, i cleaned his wound. Got him dressed, took him outside to smoke his cigarette and let him be. My other fellas consist of a blind gentlemen with right sided neuropathy, a older fillipino man who i constantly try and figure out new methods to communicate with, and a recovering heroine addict. All who make coming to my clinical everyday, doing 8 hours of free labor worth while. I love my paients. i genuinly care for theyre well being. I laugh at my experiences singing Church songs as i wait patiently for them to.finish peeing in the bathroom, while i stand less than a foot away from them. I dont think unless you live your life, committed to trying to.help and understand someone elses you really feel it. I dont think people understand, those crazy homeless, sick people you see on the streets, are now my patients, and the only thing i care to focus on first is the “sick” aspect.
My boyfriend asking me to send him nudies right now…..
Homie I just spent the last 5 hours in class learning cardiovascular diseases, lab work, creating care plans for patients. I’m tired, now I have to get up.
Take nudies, attempt to look enthusiastic. When id rather be asleep….my ass-on the counter shot agrees.